Crash and Burn and then Burn Somemore

Very disappointed with the outcome....very very fucking disappointed...Why things has to be this way.....you try so hard, you put in so much effort, you work so so hard, so much research and time spent....and after good feedback from the managers....they now turn 180 fucking degrees and offer me something totally different....so different to a point that it is unthinkable to even consider......fuck laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa................... But do I have the right to be angry? Do i have the right to be sad? Maybe I do....whatever it is....the outcome is....totally....unexpected......I thought my big break has finally arrived....and I think i deserved it....then when the opportunity came i took it....then it took me for a nice ride up into the hills...passing along nice waterfalls, trees, animals...and a beautiful fucking rainbow....then it took me up to the sky...allowing me to slide down the clouds and play around the stars....oh my...what a fun ride it was....until it dropped me down into a fucking hole deep in the middle of the ocean.....oh my....what a fall from grace....what a sensation crashing down in flames......what a WTF moment it was...and still is...